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Good evening guys.

First of all I'd like to say thanks to everyone that's been so concerned about me and my (rather stubborn) cold.
It's getting better now, a lot better...I'm just waiting for the sniffles to go away completely so I can feel like myself again. There's a lot of work in school now so it could really not have come at a worse time. But...as I said luckily it's passing now so it's aaaall good.

Anyway I'm relaxing in front of the tv at the moment. Friends is on, Ross is playing rugby and it pretty much looks like it would if I would try to (not good that is). Ha ha! I've seen the episode a million times but it never really gets old. 

Also I'm fixing my nails. The picture didn't turn out so good (it was difficult taking a nice one with so much zoom), but I suppose you can pretty much see what color it is. It's called Madras (yes, as in the city)...I don't know why but that doesn't really matter does it (?). No matter what it's called I like it, because it's all red and Christmasy ^_^

,.,, Nailpolish

I love juice!

Ha ha I know that was sort of random (well really random even), but I really do. And also the juice I'm having is suppose to have like extra vitamins and bacteries and stuff...which I'm hoping will speed up the process of kicking out the cold even a little more.

It's 8 p.m here, in case someone was wondering. And I'm gonna get back to my nails now.

Ki o tsukete mina-san! (^ _ ^) Matane! 

"Dead fish go with the flow... but I'm not dead yet."
                                                 - Anonymous

How come when I'm completely well I can sit in the sofa for hours and hours, but when I'm not and actually should rest I get annoyed after about half an hour?
Sitting still is suddenly the worst thing; I feel useless and bored and I'm not even close to being tired enough to take a nap (which we all know usually is my favourite pastime). I want to be responsible and sit still with a cup of tea and a fruit (or something like that) but... 

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...I'm really terrible at being sick (well I'm not so much sick as having a cold, but whatever...), I hate "taking care of myself" in that way. Because that means admitting that I am sick, and that's something I've never been able to do (not even as a kid). See I see that's admitting weakness. And I hate that (I'm messed up I know...) 

So I'm reluctantly sitting still, watching "The biggest looser" on tv and bitching to you guys about it. My throat hurts and I think I might have a little bit of a fever (don't have a thermometer though, so I can't be sure) but over all I don't feel that bad.   

Which is why I want to do something...which I shouldn't. Gah. I hate this.

There's a chill in the air. Show us your favorite coat.
Submitted by jacolily.

Winter coat

Konnichiwa mina-san!
How are you?

I'm...well mentally I am good, physically I'm battling a fall/winter cold that took a hold of me because I've been outside in the cold with only a thin jacket (that frankly is for spring and not winter). Which is why I'm planning on locking myself inside the apartment all day...
....To not infect anyone else, but above all because I look like hell when I'm not feeling well. And we don't want the poor unknowing people of the rest of the city to have to see that.

Anyway. Since I got up at like 11.30 or something I am still on breakfast (sort of). I'm having this juice (you can see it in the picture) called ProViva, which is suppose to be filled with good vitamins and stuff....which I hope will speed up kicking the cold out of me.  

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I'm also reading this book (in picture above) "Japanese Women Don't Get Old or Fat" (by Naomi Moriyama and William Doyle). Dunno how much of the tips in it that I can use, since I'm a little handicapped in the kitchen and a little poor in wallet, but it was a cheap book and I figure that I can perhaps take some useful ideas from it.

Plus it's a nice looking addition to by bookcase. And we all know that I love books, so that's important ^ _ ^...
...and I'm also reading it to avoid doing my homework (it isn't going to be turned in until tomorrow anyway, so it's aaaall good).

Hi hi...I'm such a good student.

12.53 p.m. Now I really have to go brush my teeth (meh, I hate brushing my teeth, it bores me more than it should) and get on with my "shut inside the apartment" - day.

Yoi ichinichi o mina-san! (^ _ ^) Matane! 

Or really over 30.000 even, because I had to get a new visitors counter when the last one hit 10.000 (because I managed to get one that only had 4 digits). There's a lot of blogs out there that has higher counts than that, heck there's a lot of blogs out there thas has higher counts than that a day, but for me...it's a a high number. I mean it's 30 thousand hits (!), 30 thousand individual humans (or sorts of, some of you come back of course) that klick on my blog to read my thoughts about life, love, school, music, movies and other random-ness.

When I started blogging (quite a few) years back, I never thought that so much people would be interested in what's happening in my life. I've never really thought about myself as an interesting person. Not boring perhaps, I'm much to strange to be boring, but not really anything special enough to read about. My life is the one of an ordinairy teenager (well not a teenager anymore, but it was when I started), nothing I say or do is remotely special compared to some people that I know (or know of). Sure I consider myself to be farely apt at writing, but I never figured that I was good enough to make people understand my feelings just by writing them down. By some wonderful luck (or talent, I don't know what to call it) I am able to though, and I am so grateful for that. For being able to share with all of you the events that unfold in my life...at the moment and in the past.

A lot has happened during the course of "the time of 30.000 visitors". I mean maybe it doesn't seem like a lot for some of you, but for me - who has always had a failry quiet "good girl" kind of life - it is.

I got drunk for the first time. Ha ha I know, I really am that innocent (correction: I was that innocent). It was on the 3rd of april this year...20 years old I got drunk for the first time. I'd had alcohol before, on my graduation and some other times, but never been drunk drunk. Don't know if it's something to "celebrate" or not, but it was a really great night. That night I realized that alcohol is fun (in resonable quantities of course, and - for me - only on the weekends and special occasions). For a good part of my life I'd been scared of acohol, thinking that it's scary because it makes people think less and loose control. I'm such a big control freak, has always been, but that night I learned that it's okay to let go every once in a while...and I think that was good for me.

Speaking of things that was good for me...That same night I kissed a guy for the first time. Well actually I sort of made out with a guy for the first time too. Ha ha...whoops! Stuff like that is known to happen, as someone once said (about another subject, but it's a useful sentence ne?), and I don't regret it at all...Or I should say I didn't regret it back then. I still don't of course, it's just I don't think about it anymore because it was a long time ago. The person that kissed me wasn't one I had a relationship with, he was just a classmate (I know I know, it's something about me and classmates >_<), but that doesn't matter to me. Sure he will always have a special place in my heart (I don't think he knows that though), because I cherish that night as the first one when I felt desired...but I never wanted anything more from him than some affection in that precise moment. Which is what I got...and so I was quite pleased (not so pleased with the aftermath of this whole thing, but that's a terribly long story - that had almost nothing to with the incident itself and all to do with me - that you can find in another post).

Hm...what's happened more..? Oh yeah this:

I picked a direction in my life. Or something like that. Picking a direction sounds a little serious, but I guess you can (sort of) say that it was what I did. My first year at the university I studied history, which I loved and don't regret at all, but it didn't really lead me anywhere. It's not an easy thing making a carreer from that standpoint, and I wasn't sure if I wanted to either..so I had to go in a different direction. Which my mother (who I think just wanted me to stop playing around, even though she didn't say so out loud) was more than happy to help with. And that's how I ended up studying Behavioral Science, which is what I'm going to do until 2012. It feels secure to have a way to travel on, at least for a little while longer, so I'm really thankful to my mother for steering me a little (I need that, I'm to shattered on my own). Will I work as a behavioral scientist when I'm finished? ...Who the hell knows, but at the moment that's not what's important. At the momet I'm just happy doing somehthing with substance.

Oh and this last one (I couldn't think of more, even though I'm sure there are loads) some of you know about. It's a very recent development, and the post that told you was family only, but now I'm saying it here...dunno why I'm a lot more open all off a sudden, but...Well no matter, I suppose I'll be a bit exhibitionistic and just tell you. During this, "the time of 30.000 visitors", I also slept with a guy for the first time. Yup. And here's the kicker: He's a classmate too. And nope, he's not someone I have a relationship with either. Just as the one that got my first kiss this guy was someone that just happened to be there in that moment. There was alcohol in the picture once again, but not a lot, and it's not something I regret either (there's no use in regretting things, you can't take them back anyway). He's a good guy, it's not weird between us (*and we used a condom so it was safe*) and he is cute. And I'm sorry but I'm quite visually oriented so this last thing is important to me. You want them to be nice to look at. I mean honestly, the ones that says that it's only personality that's important are lying. Of course you want a good personality too, but...well you all know what I mean (right?).      

So there you go. The innocent girl that started this blog isn't gone, but she sure has changed quite a lot. I would never have thought this about myself when I moved down here last year...I never figured that I was a person capable of this much development (yeah I'm going to call it development instead of change, because that's what I think it is)...but apparently I was. He he...and I love it.

Oyasuminasai mina-san! (^ _ ^) Matane!

Do you believe that honesty is the best policy?

Hell yeah I do.
You shouldn't bs people.

But, I also believe that sometimes perhaps it's better to bend the truth a little not to hurt someone.
For example:
If a friend asked me "Do I look fat in this?" I would never ever say yes (even if I, against all odds, thought so).

But if it doesn't hurt anyone, then yeah...honesty is the best policy.

Reid: I've been thinking about it and, in the entire time I've known Hotch, I don't think I've ever seen him blink.
Garcia: I know - it's weird.
Reid: Classic Alpha-male behavior
Garcia: Do you think he stared down Foyet?
Reid: Maybe. It could be what saved his life.
Garcia: Do you think he stared the whole time, like with each (makes stabbing motion) stab?
Reid: I have no idea.
Garcia: Is he okay?
Reid: I wouldn't be, but, I'm a blinker.

Criminal-minds-Garcia

Dr. Spencer Reid

Haha...I realize that it's a conversation more than a quote, but it's really funny...so I don't care.

Or no wait...just oranges...or no, just one orange actually.

Orange

It's five to eight in the evening here in Sweden, pitch black outside the window and I'm watching "Friends" and pealing an orange. Actually I hate pealing oranges, it's a lot more work than eating them...but I kind of felt like eating something and it was the only fruit I had left.

In fact it's among the last edible things in my home over all, but...
Money comes tomorrow!!!!

I'm sooo happy about this, since I have been dirt poor for most of this month (dunno how it happened, the money was just gone one day without me knowing what the hell I spent them on...I wish I could say that someone was stealing from my card but I've actually checked and unfortunately I spent it all myself).

I feel like reading a good book, but I don't know which. Any tips?

Still not finished with pealing the orange. Crap it takes time. Anyway...

Ki o tsukete mina-san! (^ _ ^) Matane!

Tim Burton is a genius!
Corpse Bride, Sleepy Hollow, Sweeney Todd: The Demon Barber of Fleet Street, Edward Scissorhands, Charlie and the Chocolate factory, the list of great movies this man has made is long (the listed are the ones I have seen, but I am sure that every movie he's made is as great).

I saw this preview for the first time the other day (thanks to the Tim Burton group on Facebook!) and I'm soooo excited. Watch it and tell me that you don't have to fight the urge to squeal from anticipation, I dare you (!).

And as always when we have Tim Burton, we also have Jonny Depp.
I'm such a fan of his!
The collaboration between Burton and Depp always make magic things happen. Really. Ooooo I'm gonna watch Corpse Bride later...he he, I'm spacing out. Anyway I think this picture is totally hilarious. Jonny Depp looks totally crazy, and I'm a huge fan of Helena Bonham Carter to, she's a really cool woman. 

Johnny_depp_helena_bonham_carter_alice_in_wonderland_tim_burton

This is a movie I have to see. No matter how little money I have I need to be able to afford to go to the cinema this time, not just talk about it (which is what I tend to do, talk and talk and then the movie isn't in theatres anymore).

Ha ha! That's me. But not this time.

Ki o tsukete mina-san! (^ _ ^) Matane!